Wednesday, May 23, 2007
to shauna
shauna, im at a loss for words.
the last person we wanted to upset was you. we never meant for you to be so upset. we understand your concern, and we know we can count on you. because in all incidents, it was you who was there for us.
i totally know how it feels not to know anything. cos that is ALSO happening to me. im being kept in the dark over something too. but sometimes, if you just know, the person knows perfectly well that you are offering to help. cos i told her i wanted to be there for her. but, she decided not to share. so, it dawned on me that she would be happier like that. so, i let her be.
well, its not that i would be happier if i didnt tell you. but please, we do have our reasons.
we are trying to handle our problems one by one. we know we can do it. breaking down doesnt mean we're weak. we're just venting anger. there isnt an option for us. we cant tell. we know we are a clique and we are close. we are, we dont deny it. and its not that we dont trust you that we're keeping it to ourselves. we dont know how to put it either.
but we promise, we wont keep this going. we'll sort things out, if its the last thing we do. and you take care too. we appreciate your concern too.
about the first incident, i didnt mean to keep you out. but i told yingmin only a little. levia, the moment i told her, it turned out bad. so i decided it was a bad choice. therefore, i was stupid. and i didnt tell anyone except those who were involved
aleena, im sorry, too.
ELLA!
7:50 PM