Wednesday, May 23, 2007
labyrinth
i dont know what is going on. everything is just happening without my knowledge. i dont know how you got those misunderstandings, those ideas.
and i dont know what you said to _____. maybe thats the source
but of alll people you. you. shocking! youre the least expected of all people. and i guess... i cant describe how disappointed i am
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ive alot to say to you. but i dont know how to put it. but at this pace, more people are gonna get hurt in the process. dont wait any longer. im serious. dead serious
things are turning so bad. worse than i can ever fathom. i dont know what else to say. ive said what i wanted. its up to you now. its all up to you. maybe i'll try talking to you again. but you need to know outsiders can see what you cant see. think again, thats all i have to say.
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erm. about you...whatever you told me, ive only one line in reply. practise what you preach. if this is gonna turn out fine, i believe it. but what you are doing, doesnt convince me at all. not at all. there you are... acting like that, and you expect me to do something else. im afraid that is not going to happen. well, ive tried doing what you asked me to. but you didnt notice it. and you... gave me hurtful replies. so much for wanting to talk to you indeed
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yeewen, dont worry about me. i assure you im fine. and...im not so bothered about it. i dont have the energy to, like i said. but i would like to know what you know. and im dead curious how you knew. thanks so much. thank you thank you thank you.
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hey yingmin, i know youre very disappointed. and lost. but you have to stay strong. very strong. i know its hard. and its complicated. but no, i know youre stronger than this. everything will turn out fine okay. im positive of that. stop doing that to yourself, its dangerous cos its late. it hurts people around you too. i know you can do it, i believe in you
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shauna, i cried when i read your blog. im trying hard now to hold my tears. i know ive hurt you. but ive told you as much as ive told yingmin. i never mentioned anything after that. im okay with my problems alr. now, my problem is you. when i walked up the rotunda with you today, i wanted to ask you if you were angry with me. but i couldnt bring myself to do it. because i know how much ive hurt you. im very sorry. i thought not mentioning anything might be better for us, and for the rest. but no, i made a mistake. a grave mistake. i know you want to help me, and be there for me. but for now, i think it would be better to keep it this way. because WE DONT WANT MORE PEOPLE TO BE AFFECTED. i know it hurts to also see us like that. but please, please know, WE DIDNT WANT ALL THESE TO HAPPEN. because it hurts so much. and it also hurts us to see you hurting for us. we cried. we care about you too. GAH, I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO FACE YOU ANYMORE. just know, just know, we dont feel good at all.
see? im talking to so many people. all these troubles. gosh, i wonder how much more i can take.
set me free, someone, anyone
it hurts to see you all like that. and i want to brace myself. i myself aint feeling good, i admit
ive tried my best already. i can do nothing else. except be there for you. i guess its still up to you. so...good luck
你说你不怕黑
一个人也无所谓
独自撑伞走过伤悲
不再和爱有关联
我想要带你飞
飞向彩虹的另一边
搬进幸福的里面
一直到永远的永远
终于下了一场晴天雨
ELLA!
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