Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i have to put an end to this
i wanna be happy, i wanna be strong.
i dont want a trace of misery, and i dont want to find myself frowning
i never knew i was unhappy, i never knew i would take it so hard
i thought i could handle it, but i overestimated myself
i've neglected far more important things, and i guess its just not easy to salvage the situation now
i dont know what to say to alot of people, people who care
i didnt want to find myself like that, really
thanks for being there when i needed you, and forever behind me even when i did not
i really appreciate your concern, but i guess im just disappointing you
SHAUNA you've been such a good friend, thanking you aint enough. you were always so understanding, and cheering me up when i was down. i am so sorry about the outing, i really hope you will understand
LEVIA, i dont know how i am going to tell you everything, just give me some time. i'll try and tell you what i know, and i just wanna tell you to put everything aside and concentrate on what is more important. dont worry about this, cause you really dont have to
YINGMIN, i hope you're okay now. yesterday you got all of us so worried! you were so sick and there i was, my mind on something else. i really shouldnt have, i feel so bad
YUKI, thanks for your concern, i mean, i didnt know what to say, so i didnt reply alot of your messages, and i ignored your conversations online. but still there you were, encouraging me and telling me everything was ok, though you had no idea what was going on. i am so sorry that you just only got to know about this. but i guess its better this way, as i dont want anymore affected people
TEH, your words really helped last night. i felt better, and i know you didnt know what to say to me. i think i was jut being ridiculous, and i really shouldnt have. argh, i owe you so much
ELLA!
4:36 PM