Sunday, April 30, 2006
the limit
i guess most of the time i only blog when im sad. uber sad. or when theres some significant occasion when im happy.
welll... whats the big occasion today?! im not trying to make known to everyone i have a freaking irritating brother but.. i really cant stand it anymore
what have i done to deserve this lah?! everyday i dowan to go home cos he will most probably come home with his pigger friends. and they make a hell lot of noise that even being in a karaoke with many people who sing out of tune is better. or else, he will play his stupid ps2 which is s black box that can entertain him so much that he doesnt want to study. moreover, he irritates me when he is bored.
seriously ah... what have i done to deserve this?! wahhhhhh making me angry really entertains him a lot man. he LAUGHS when i get so fed up. what the hellllllllllll!!!!!!!!!
to him, im not a sister. im someone he can come to when he has homework. he takes me for granted, and takes it that i have to help him with his homework. so there
but LISTEN UP, u stupid idiot, WHO CAN HELP ME WHEN I HAVE HOMEWORK?!
i go to my friends lorh. my nice friends. who are nicer than him and who has a different view. who are there when i have problems, and who never hesitate to cheer me up. take my birthday for example. many people came to cheer me up. im grateful for that. but he didnt wish me a happy birthday, nor did he give me a present. last time, he would still secretly buy me a present or something he knew i had been wanting for a long time. this year, not even a happy birthday. he didnt even want to wake up and have breakfast with the family. what the hell lah. my father was busy with work so he didnt get me a present, but he still gave me money and asked me to buy something i liked. my bro spent his time with his stupid black box. moreover, he told me he wanted some games for his stupid black box on his birthday. YEA, DREAM ON. i rather spend the money on my friend's birthdays. hmph
this is my bro. this is him. this is his personality.
right. let me elaborate on why im so angry. yesterday, i was busy mugging for my geog and i wanted to finish revising for the whole subject. really. im now 1 chapter away. so yeasterday i was only 3 chapters away and i was stressed. so he popped out and asked me some homework on his science. ok.. i put down my tablet and my textbook and took his paper. i looked at the question and couldnt remember how to do it. i asked for his textbook and he snatched the paper away. ridiculous right? so he looked at the paper and tried to sort the question out. fine. i asked for his textbook again. dao me. dao lorh. sort it out urself lorh. i asked again and said i wouldnt bother if he also didnt bother. he took it and i flipped through the book. wad did he do? noramlly people will sit by the side mah. he went to play with his soccer ball and started irritating me by singing "firefly". i was listening to it while doing my geog and he sang it in this voice i told him not to before. its so irritating lah. i told him to shaddup twice but to no avail. dao me hor. how to concentrate on the book like that. i was trying to help him lor. so i threw the book at him. come to think of it, it was funny. so he flared up and shouted at me, blaming me for hitting him without a reason. walao. i said i told him to shaddup twice and if he didnt want to, why should i help him. i put down my geog lah.it was definitely more important than his stupid homework. i want to get into a good class next year lor. and hes not working hard for his psle man. probably peer pressure. playing day and night. mad.
ok... that matter wasnt so infuriating lah. he did apologise after many hours and asked if i wanted lunch. i had stayed in my room after that. i wasnt feeling well and after that dispute, i felt really weak and couldnt finish my geog. i was really sad as i wanted to finish it. so i watched movies in my room. and i had no appetite so i said i didnt want to eat. slpet till 7 something. well... i havent been sick for a long time and nobody knows if im sick one. my parents are workaholics and they dont even know when im sick. to teh teh: rmb.. my dad thought i was lazy and asked why i was sleeping till so late. it was then he knew i was sick. right? i had already been sick the previous day lah.
yea. so im feeling better now. and i rmb after he apologised did i tell him that im not feeling well and needed some peace. he said he understood and left.
so today.. i guess my words fell on deaf ears and he irritated me again. i wont say why... but im haveing a breakdown now. what happened yesterday was only a small matter and i dont want to seem petty abt it but today.. i really cant stand it anymore.
teh teh came to have tuition at my house and she had to stay back a while cos she was going for badminton later and she was waiting for he parents to come and fetch her. we decided to wastch some videos on youtube and he started to throw this stupid deflated rubber ball at us. teh teh and i tried to ignore it but when he hit my head and the ball bounced on my tablet, i lost my rag. i told him to stay away and leave us freaking alone. no use. fine. after teh teh went, he continued irritating me and i wont say how.
end of story.
ok. i really want to say this to him
GET A LIFE. YOURE ALREADY P6 AND YOUR PSLE IS NO JOKE. I HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS BEFORE AND LET ME TELL YOU. WITHOUT HARD WORK, YOU CAN NEVER ACHIEVE WHAT YOU WANT. i dont care what school you want to go to. dont go crying to dad and mum after you get ur posting results. GROW UP MAN. you cant go on like this. and irritating me make you happy right?! LET ME TELL YOU. YOURE SADISTIC MAN. inhumane.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE
ELLA!
5:51 PM